I noticed I dislike many things and disapprove of a whole lot everyday situations in life. I have been working hard on my music career but I have not made that hit record yet. After my latest blog “tears from heaven” My brother asked me have I ever thought of pursuing a writing career. I told him no but I do like to write on my blog and I have been praying for days along with a lot of soul searching for my inner talent. I have some doubt about writing and my ability to have people read and enjoy my stories. When I write from the heart and really take my time out of love to express the emotion in me I paint a vivid picture with words. But then I will look at Whit’s whittlings, Couch talk by Azron, and midnight, me and the blues by Cracker I am impressed and want to be as good as them. I am happy the illumination guy introduced me to blogstream where I meet a lot of good people. I remember my encounter with the illumination guy; it was on April of 2006 he walked into the store I worked in under the AT&T stint. He was a very animated fellow with a problem with the speed of his laptop internet connection. I assisted him with the problem at first I thought it was human error. When he explained the situation of loosing the connection not getting e-mail and other things I jokingly said you sure the government is not tapping your signal. He laughed and we began to create small talk as I usually do in order to by time when I am presented with an issue I cannot resolve for a customer. I don’t really know how we got into this but I ended up showing him how to find the word mason on the one dollar bill. We talked and he said some thing very interesting to me he believes I am a key piece to a puzzle in his endeavors. Because it was a little to close of a coincidence that we had the same ideals of the way things were. He then introduced me to blogstream and we began to share our blogs and ideas. I tend to be one for the change which is explained in the book of revelations as he is doing his best to inform people into changing the outcome of impending doom. After that I decided to walk another path one that would help me find the “me” that I am. I just thought before I can change the world I have to know who I am. It is written that everyone has a talent within them. I am striving to find my talent. I started working at the age 17 I am now 27 and I have worked 12 part-time jobs in that time frame. All my friends asked me why do I switch jobs like a pair of underwear for? I tell them all the same thing I had a deep feeling that this job was just not for me. They laugh and say you were only there for 6 months, which was true the most time I ever spent at one job was 2 years. And that was AT&T I did 2 years quit worked for t-mobile quit and went back to AT&T for 2 years and well you know. I am a complex person I do not like waking up early in the morning, I don’t like the fact I have to be somewhere at a designated time, and I don’t like being accused. All these were the main traits of my previous work experiences and this is what made me quit. Many of time before I left a job I would rally many employees behind me as if I was leading a revolution against corporate America. I have been called militant and a radical idealist. To me I am just and artist a dreamer of a better work environment for all. Many say it is because I am working part time jobs I am not working on my profession. I told them that I don’t know what profession I want; I just want a good job. My bro told me well pray ask God to guide you so I did and I am still unsure of what it is I am good at and could in turn work in it as a profession. My friends from high school and I created a band and make music hoping one day to enter the music industry .During school I was always and A student when it came to my writing classes. I never even really tried hard to write a good essay, I could write one in the matter of minutes and get and A without trying. I wrote many essays that received top honors but shrugged it off as if I wasn’t really interested in such accolades. I wrote many short stories about my life and characters I created which represent me overcoming hardships I have endured. Then I started to hangout with a lot of girls due to being a basketball star in high school. I stopped writing and began parting like a rock star which blinded me. I did not see that later in life I would be wondering what if. I should have structured my life yes the death of my father did take me in a downward spiral but I moved on a little, The one question that remains is am I good enough to write on the level of movie script writers, novel writers, and short story writers. What do you guys think? I am not as good as i was and I am out of practice.