to find inner peace and wisdom to deal with all the negative that comes my way.
I am not a happy person I haven't been happy since my father was shot and killed ten years ago. I just have been dealing with my sadness day to day aimlessly. I do not know what can make me happy again. I have tried religion and scripture but that only raises more questions and deepens my depression. Am I crazy if I want to know more then the teachings that were passed down to us? life is a great school were we are constantly learning but what happens when one gets tired of the harsh lessons? I get angy but I am not really violent, I love to help others but get frustrated easly. I have many flaws and I don't really want to put the effort to change. I lost my joy 10years ago and I want to find my way to that inner peace but why do I crave that I don't understand how,why,where, what, and when. The world is tuff and it is getting tuffer ! BE Well all find what gives you joy and and do your best not to lose it.